Watched a programme last week about yoyo dieting. Seems some women have lost as much as 20 stone (280lbs/127kilos) in their lives – and put it all back on again with plenty more to spare. Dread to face up to this but I think I’m one of these women. Was looking at an old diary the other day, from 30 years ago. Weight gets mentioned a lot. Yet I was mostly only around ten stone (140lbs/63kilos) at the time. Even so, I was obsessed with my weight. Perhaps if I hadn’t been I’d never have gained weight, lost it again, regained it, lost it and so it yoes so it yoes.
I am a yoyo dieter. I can lose weight and I can gain it. What I can’t do is what normal unobsessed-by-food people do and just stay the same. It’s always going up (if not on a diet or recently come off one) or going down (if on a diet in a this way it will be different though it never ever ever is!)
I had hoped becoming Paleo as opposed to actually dieting would make the difference and to some extent I do truly believe it has. But I can feel that switch in my brain again that says, okay, enough already of the dieting. Let’s get back to bingeing.
I am hoping awareness of this may help to prevent too much damage being done. I do know what’s happening and why it happens. After a while of being strict and “good” you get tired of it and just want to eat whatever you fancy when you fancy it and fancies are so lovely to eat anyway, sigh…
I’m also of the view as I said last week that carbs are particularly attractive in Winter. They’re comforting, soothing, delicious and almost impossible to avoid. Well they are for me. I keep succumbing and then hating myself for it!
No way to live
This is no way to live. Self hatred is probably the biggest cause of weight gain, not over eating. Same as with giving up smoking or cutting down on drink if you imbibe too much, you have to be in a good place in your head to take the hit.
So I’ll do my best to stick to the programme as much as I can. If I do fall off the wagon in the cold, dreary, depressing weather with the dark dank nights that just make you want chocolate, I’ll do my very best to climb back aboard. Right now, if I can at least hold onto the loss I’ve achieved this year, I’ll be happy. Then I’ll start afresh next year.
Hope you’re having more success than I am right now. See you later in the week. And thanks for listening.